Snippets from My Journal #12 October 16, 2018

July 4, 2011

Do you not know that you are a temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you?  Paul wrote in I Cor. 3:16.

And do I truly realize that the Spirit of God that dwells in me is the SAME Spirit that raised Christ from the dead?  Romans 8:11

I know it…but I don’t know it.  Not really.  I don’t live like it day in and day out. I know I don’t because I too easily allow my circumstances to define my behavior, rather than the indwelling Presence of your Holy Spirit.

I even have plaque on the wall that says God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.  2 Timothy 1:7  Yet when I walk through a shopping mall and see someone from my city who is a known witch walking in my direction, I more than likely run the other way or at the very least slip into the nearest store lest I get anywhere near her, as if her walking by me could ‘pollute’ me.

Lord, forgive me – that’s such wrong thinking!

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Since the Spirit of the Living God dwells in us, why am I not saying to myself in a situation like that, “Whoever walks by me is going to get hit with a ray from the Son because the Light of the World dwells in me” ?

Was it something like that, Lord, that happened when you walked by Matthew at his tax collectors’ desk? All you said, was ‘Follow Me,’ and he just got up and followed!

Darkness will NEVER be more powerful than light; the devil and his minions will NEVER be more powerful than Your authority, Lord Jesus.  A created being cannot overpower THE Creator.  Why would I ever cave to fear or anxiety in the presence of workers of iniquity? How foolish of me!  Lord I need to change the way I think!  He who is in me is greater than he who is in the world. I John 4:4

Since the dawn of creation, thousands of generations have come and gone.  I could have been born at any time in history, but you determined that I would live in THIS season, at THIS time in history.  That means You called me from my mother’s womb and You appointed me to carry Your Presence everywhere I go – to be LIGHT in a dark society.

When the temple of Solomon stood in Jerusalem, everybody knew the Presence of God was there.  Its very existence said so.

Your Word says that now, we are the ‘temple of God’. Your desire was never for a building but for living temples.  Your desire from before Creation has been for a people, a family, so filled with Your presence, so in love with You that just because we show up, the atmosphere changes.

Lord, I repent…forgive me for every time I shrank back instead of pressing forward.  I was thinking more about me than You, Jesus.  Help me to learn how to forget about myself and just be preoccupied with You and the reason I’m alive right now. It’s all about YOU!

I sure don’t need to think more of myself and I don’t need to think less of myself; I just need to think of myself less.

 

 

Snippets from My Journal #11 October 9, 2018

October 21, 2016

I’ve been reading a book entitled LIVING WATER by Brother Yun, a Chinese pastor.  What he has suffered for the Gospel is staggering.  I was particularly struck this morning with what he wrote about discipleship.

In China new believers are immediately taught five things which all disciples must be ready to do at any time.

Disciples must always be ready to pray, regardless of the circumstances around them or happening to them.  Prayer is the foundational practice because it is in our private times of prayer, alone with the Lord, that we get to know Him, to hear from Him and to adopt His ways.

Disciples must always be ready to share the Gospel.  The words of Paul to Timothy are the mandate that Chinese leaders teach to the new believers: Preach the word; be instant in season, out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort with all long suffering and doctrine.  (2Tim. 2:4)  In China, this is not just a lesson in a classroom; new disciples are promptly sent out to put into practice what they are learning.  Is it any wonder that millions in China have given their lives to Christ?  It’s amazing what can happen when we love God more than we fear the face of man.

Disciples must always be ready to suffer for the name of Jesus.  It is convicting to read testimony after testimony of arrest, torture and imprisonment of Chinese disciples which results in hardened criminals in the same prisons hearing the Gospel and coming to faith.  Those testimonies are dramatic but the ones that touch me even more is when I read of Chinese disciples who have been disowned by their families, spat upon by friends, even beaten by parents because of their faith. And they, like the early Christians, rejoice that they are worthy to suffer for His Name’s sake.

Disciples in China are taught to live each day as though it could be their last. They are taught to be ready to be martyred because of their love for Jesus.  Heaven is real to them; they lay aside the seductions of this world and look ‘for the city whose builder and maker is God.’

Disciples in China are also taught that they should be ready to escape for the Gospel’s sake if an opportunity presents itself, for Jesus said: ‘When you are persecuted in one place, flee to another.’ (Matt. 10:23)

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Brother Yun comments that there is great power in suffering for the gospel. While thousands of Chinese Christians have been brutally tortured, imprisoned and even killed for the gospel, the Church in China has grown exponentially.

The early Christians in the book of Acts were also empowered and emboldened through what they suffered.  After some of the Apostles were thrown in jail, the Lord delivered them supernaturally and they prayed ‘for more boldness’ to preach the Gospel (Acts 5:41-42)

How little most of us in America can relate but is that day coming? There are hints in our day that persecution of Christians could be coming in the near future.

Lord, I’m a coward by nature.  I don’t like pain – physical or emotional. I know that right at this moment I don’t have the grace to be a martyr but at this moment I’m not facing that challenge.  I put all my trust in You that if that day ever comes, You, Yourself, will be with me and carry me by your grace through whatever I may face.

I love you, Lord. You know I do, but I am reluctant to say “I’ll never fail You”.  What I do know is that YOU will never fail me!  And that’s all I need to know, isn’t it, Jesus?

Thank You for Your faithfulness!

Snippets from My Journal #10 October 2, 2018

March 12, 2016

The Lord has been speaking to me about the Beatitudes and this morning I’ve been meditating on Matthew 5:5, ‘Blessed are the meek for they will inherit the earth.‘ NASB

I looked it up in the New Living Translation: ‘God blesses those who are humble for they will inherit the earth.‘  Hmm – that’s quite a promise.

The Message Bible provokes me to think of this Beatitude in a different way: ‘You’re blessed when you’re content with just who you are – no more and no less.  That’s the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can’t be bought.’

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Sometimes we have funny ideas about what humility looks like.  I was thinking this morning that there are only two people in the entire Bible that are identified as humble or meek.  Moses was the first and Jesus is the second.  Both of them show incredible patience and compassion towards other people but both of them also had no reluctance to boldly confront unrighteousness, rebellion and hypocrisy.  These are the two the Bible lifts up as ‘humble’.  No weakness there….

I’m intrigued by the way the Message Bible rendered this verse: ‘You’re blessed when you’re content with just who you are – no more and no less.’  Never thought about it just that way but the wisdom of that statement really strikes me this morning. Humility starts with believing that the God Who loves us created us just the way we are for His purposes.  Accepting ourselves then is an act of gratitude and a recognition that He knows better than we do what we needed to be in order to fulfill our destiny.  It is also an act of faith in an all loving, all wise and all knowing Heavenly Father.

That being true, I need to repent for every time I have complained to myself or anybody else about my appearance, my height, my body type, etc., etc. How foolish of me and how ungrateful.  You, Lord, are the Potter, I am the clay.  It’s the Potter’s right to make me however He wants to and it’s grossly unrighteous for me to complain about the creation of my Heavenly Father.

So, Lord, I repent – I really repent. Please forgive me and I choose this morning to agree with You.  I confess my fleshly opinions – how wrong they were.  What an arrogant thing to do!!!  Forgive me for the hundreds of times I wished I was tall and slender instead of short and chubby.  Lord, I’m so sorry.  Please forgive me.  I choose You this morning and I accept exactly how You created me.  Your ways towards us are perfect – always. I choose to be ‘content with who I am’, Lord.

It never occurred to me before that this is truly the foundation of humility but it makes so much sense to me this morning.  The very essence of pride is considering one’s own opinions and attitudes superior to everyone else’s, including the Lord’s!  What a horrifying thought!

I repent of pride, of arrogance, of thinking You could have done a better job of fashioning me in my mother’s womb!  I am appalled, Lord, at my attitude.  Cleanse me, cleanse my heart of any and every opinion or attitude I have that is rooted in pride and train me in the humility of Your Beloved Son, Jesus.  It’s not my outward appearance that really matters, it’s my heart.  All  I ask is that You conform me into the image and likeness of Your Beloved Son.

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Oh Lord, You are so amazing.  Thank you for speaking to me. Seal Your words in my heart.

The Lord just showed me that He created me with a need for discipline in eating in order to train me to be just as disciplined about feeding my soul with His Word.  I’ve never thought of that before, never made that connection.  Thank you, Holy Spirit, thank you.